So today I checked the scale and I'm down to 129.0lbs!!!! yay. I mean I was only at 129.6 on sunday but to me it's exciting since well...I haven't been exercising as much as I wanted to this week. I'm going to get on that today! Also, after I checked my weight my parents made pizza IN THE MORNING, WTF!! And the smell got to me and I really wanted some so I had 3 small slices ughhhh. While I was eating the pizza I just had a guilty feeling in my gut but it was so good at the same time. I'm just going to balance it out with healthy foods for the rest of the evening A.K.A salad... even though salad is so BLAH :O
I just finished dying in Metroid Prime for GameCube. Did I mention I suck at videogames but I still loveLOVElove them? Anyways, I'm going to give it a shot again later on tonight! I think I'll do much better now that I know what I'm supposed to do! LOL..
And I don't work today so I may workout and dance like Kristie suggested. I think I'll double the workout so I burn off that pizza from the morning. It really sucks to want to diet when all my parents buy and make are unhealthy and crappy food. Honestly, my mom doesn't cook so she ends up always buying microwavable crap and my stepdad does cook but he always makes either Pizza or meat with curry mixed in it. I love curry but not the way he uses it, and it has become sickening to eat everything with CURRY!!!! ugh. pleasedon'tmakemehateitpleassseeeeeeee >.>
Sorry if I sound like a complainer but I just feel like this weightloss journey is difficult when 1) I don't have money to buy healthy foods right now 2) my parents buy snacks and some foods that are bad but I like 3) I see those snacks in the fridge or pantry and i want to eat them so bad but I need to deprive myself. So far I have been doing well except for the pizza incident today.
So yay, atleast I'm at 129.0 lbs! I literally jumped up and down. I can't wait to get to 128 now:)
I know exactly where you're coming from chica. I can't buy my own food and my parents buy nothing but crap. Then when I'm trying to eat something healthy they're chowing down on all the bad stuff. It's not easy when you're the only one trying to make healthy changes, I totally understand that.
ReplyDeleteYou don't have to deprive yourself though. In fact, it's better to have a little bit of the unhealthy stuff every now and then so you don't have wild cravings and end up binging.
Work with what you've got, you can do this. :)
awhhhh thank you hun! It is so hard, ugh. They don't think I need to lose weight, and that's fine but it's me that wants to feel right with myself and I wish they would support it more.
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thank you, i try!!! :) :) sorry I am replying so late :(
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